Resolved Question: Get mad easily and i'm extremely emotional? cant live like this HELP?

ok i can really receive CRAZY for nothing. i'm 15. if someone and something starts annoying me i start screaming like a little b***tch. when my parents tell me that i cant do something i start swearing, throwing things, screaming, kicking them. last week i took my dads Blackberry cell phone and throwed it against the wall. i've ruined their cameras, computers, phones. once i took a broken doorknob and throwed it at him. i break glass against the wall. i could have killed hime and of course i regret i did it but its like another person take over me. i can be extremely mad at myself and then i make myself binge, toss up, starve....i beat myself. i used to take pills and do selfharm but i dont do that anymore. i do it when i feel like everything is going out of control. i want perfection. no one could have guessed this if they would look me on the road. i mean i look and act normal. i can be a very sweet and nice girl. but sometimes when i'm with my family and relatives and close friends who i know really well I FREAK OUT! last xmas i didnt receive anything i want so i cried every day and screamed at them how unfair they are. and at nights i just sob. i sob everyday. one day i can adore myself and be absolutely perfect and next day i hate myself, toss up and receive angryyy HELP

7 Mar 2010, 6:54 am | click here to view more